The last week and a half have been difficult for our family.  I have learned to accept the things that have happened, and do my best to try to make things better.  It feels good to finally accept that and not continue drowning in my own self pity.

On Tuesday night my lil guy who is 18 months was throwing up off and on from midnight till 6am in the morning.  I myself spent more time out of bed than in it, if you know what I mean.

This morning everyone is doing better but not out of the woods yet.  On top of feeling terrible, I had to drop all my phone shifts.  Feeling like poop and not making any extra money, darn I just can’t shake it.

I have scoured thru our bills and have downgraded our tv to the most minimal pkg and have also eliminated the pest control company.

I will start to do the pest control myself till it is absolutely necessary to go back to the pest control company which I hope is not for a long time.

My husband has been doing his own brainstorming and has come up with a way we think we can sell the house and move into an apartment.  I pray that it works out for us we won’t know till after the new year if it will work out.  Once we are out of the house, our financial stress will decrease quite a bit and we will be able to breath easier.

As of right now we are cutting really really close we have approx 40.00 if that for the unexpected expense, which is not good but it is what it is for the time being.

My husband is looking for a second job and I am continuing to work my wah job.  Mine is not a steady income it varies so it is not something I can count on but it is the only thing I have left at this time.

More updates to come.

Since Wednesday morning I have been at an all time low.  I am more perky today and can write this post without sobbing like a baby.  This is what is happening to us.

I have posted various blogs entries of my attempts to make some extra income.  All the one I have thought of i have tried and all have come to an abrupt end.  In Sept I started working as a agent for a wah company and I was so excited at this new opportunity.  It was a way for me to make the $400.00 a month we so desperately need.  I was starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, that maybe with time and persistence we could get out of the hole we have dug our into.

Yet, before I even break a stride it get pulled from under me, no more is that money available to me.  The company I was working for no longer has that contract.  Back to square one I go, it is like a get into free jail card and stay there this time.

I have to admit right now it is looking pretty hopeless, yet after a few days of nothing but thinking how am I going to make it better I have just about given up.  No sense in fighting it anymore for the time being, no way to avoid what will happen.  Days will continue rolling by and someday things will start to look better.